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Friday, September 13, 2019

I Blocked Them Both!

So I met him at his graduation. He caught my eye because he was the Valedictorian. From what I saw he was smart, of course he was handsome, a little hood, everyone had amazing things to say about him and, he was a gentleman. His name was "Mr. Sexy Face" 

Her name was Baby-girl. So baby girl and I became friends through another mutual friend. She was literally the girl that ALL THE DUDES WANTED! She was light-skinned, skinny, had natural long hair, small waist, big butt, beautiful eyes and, she was an athlete. Boys literally drooled when she pasted by but, laughed when I did. Honestly she was a good person and was loyal to the people she loved and cared about. Now one thing that kind of ruined baby-girls reputation was the fact that she switched from guy to guy. She didn't care what people thought or said and, I was in no place to judge  her. Baby-girl was always down for ANYTHING! 

Now back to Mr. Sexy Face. After seeing him at his graduation, I found him on Facebook and slid in his DM's. We chatted every now and then for a few months until we finally decided to meet him. I snuck out one night around midnight to meet him at my neighborhood park. Talking lead to kissing and kissing led to touching but, I stopped it before it went any further. Now Mr. Sexy Face and I weren't in a relationship but he would come around and meet my friends, family, and neighbors.  He was always respectful and, never made me do anything I didn't want to do.

So one night Mr. Sexy Face and I were in his car just hanging out and I asked him "What do you want for your birthday?" he stated "I want to see the Mavs play OKC" I said cool and the next day I purchased the tickets. It's game night and he comes to pick me up, opens my door and, drives to the game. On the way there he asks "Which team are you rooting for?" I said "OKC of course, my baby K.D. is playing" he was going for the Mavs. It got quiet for a few minutes after that conversation and minutes later he said "Let's make a bet. If your team wins, you can have something. If my team wins, I want something. What do you want?" I thought for a few minutes then said "If my team wins, you have to take me to prom." he said "If the Mavs win.........I want a threesome!" I kept my fingers crossed and prayed that he would not win this bet! Unfortunately, the Mavs made the last shot and took home a win.

I tried my hardest not to bring up the bet as we drove home but, he was wayy to excited about it! He brought up the threesome and asked who the second women would be? I responded "I'll find someone and I'll let you know!" For the next few days I searched the world and thought of who to ask to join us. No one came to mind and I really didn't want to disappoint him because I liked him. Now not that I was ashamed about the threesome but, I also didn't want people to judge me so I only told my cousin Naomie about it. We shared everything so it was hard keeping secrets from her. When I told her about it she said "Carina I don't think that's a good idea, he wont respect you afterwards!" I told her "You wouldn't understand. It's easy for you to get a man. You just don't understand!" and went back to searching for that second girl.  That next day at school Baby girl and I were having lunch then DING the threesome came back in mind and I boldly asked her to join me and Mr. Sexy Face and... she said "YES" without hesitation. A few minutes later I texted Mr. Sexy Face, we confirmed the date and location and the threesome was scheduled! 

Now as the date approached, I started getting nervous! Thoughts like "What if he likes her body more than mine, what if things go wrong, what if we both get pregnant, will this be enough for him to officially make me his girl?" ran through my mind but, I remained determined to accomplish this mission! The day approaches and Baby girl and I head to Mr. Sexy Face's place. He's cooked for us and before we knew it, the three of us were laying on his bed and things started getting heated. At some point in the middle of all of this, my biggest fear started happening......his focus, hands and mouth were on Baby girl only! It's like they forgot that I was even there. Jealously and anger quickly stirred up in me and, before the real intimacy began I said "This is over! LET'S GO!" I grabbed my things, she grabbed her clothes and, the drive to her house was completely silent. I got home and blocked BOTH OF THEIR NUMBERS!

For days I walked around the house with a major attitude and still trying to figure out WHAT HAPPENED and why my friend would do something like that to me! Like I invited YOU to join US and you take over when you KNEW how much I liked him! I felt like she tried to steal my man and prove to him that she was better than me!

After a few days of walking around upset at the world, I finally approached my cousin Naomie and told her what had happened that night and, why I was so upset! She said something that changed everything. She said "Your not mad at her for taking over that night, you're mad at yourself for being stupid enough to even give another women the opportunity to take your man! He didn't force you to have the threesome and, YOU ASKED HER to join YOU GUYS! She was just doing what she was asked to and......your jealous of her and that's why you blocked her!" I walked out of Naomie's room in tears.

If you've read this far I'm sure you're wondering if I ever unblocked them and, I did! I unblocked them both and apologized to them both. I apologized to Baby girl and admitted that I was jealous of her and, that I was just afraid that she would take my potential man. I apologized to Mr. Sexy Face and explained the reason why I actually agreed to doing the threesome. He accepted my apology and said he understood but, he never planned on being with me because he was working on getting back with his ex this whole time!.......Yeah he got blocked again and, I later found out that they kept talking!

Here Is What I Learned From This Experience:

  • Take responsibility for your actions. If you were wrong, ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG!
  • Never over-promise and under deliver. Do what you say you're going to do or, don't say it at all.
  • A man's job is to respect women but, it's a woman's job to give him something to respect.
  • Don't make an opportunity for you to get hurt, then start asking questions when you start to bleed. 
  • You are jealous because you're broken and, you're taking it out on someone who may have worked really hard to become whole!
  • It's better to be alone with DIGNITY than in a relationship that requires you to sacrifice your SELF-RESPECT!
  • Ohhh and never forget that some of the most DANGEROUS people come disguised as family and friends!

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